Yes, I am listening to Debussy while writing this. It’s soothing…
Mmm.
Obviously, I’ve finished reading the (for now) last book of the series, so I’m not going to get back to it – just like I’d said; I’m not going to change my opinion. Now I just have to carry on living until August 2nd, I guess. Ahaha.
Until then, I’m going to try to have a life of my own. For example yesterday, I’ve attended my best friend’s party (her name is Romana, just in case you’re reading this and you don’t know me quite well, or at all). And it was good. Really good. Despite the fact that I wasn’t planning on going there at all, I have to admit I’ve had fun. Lots of it, actually.
PAst few months I’ve been feeling like I was trying to make my friends forget my existence, like I was avoiding them. It’s a bad thing, avoiding people you like. On the other hand, it’s for the best. I am not made of iron, nor ice. Leaving them behind might be easier if I stop seeing them now, while I’m still here. Same goes for them (even though I’m not sure if anyone would miss me as much as I’ll be missing them, but it still doesn’t change my point).
Even though I’ve come to realize I wasn’t in love with any of the guys I’d been seeing, I’m not going to tempt myself. The last thing I need now is falling for someone. Childish? Maybe… But I’m not going to take that risk. I might very well spend my summer break working – I do need some money for the first semester at least.
First of all, though, I’d have to try to survive this week. It’s going to be full of examinations and I don’t feel like undergoing any of it. It’s hard focusing on something when the only thing you desire is leaving the place you’re at (this, and Edward Cullen, of course. OK, OK, enough : D ).
While procrastinating (as usually), I’ve started stalking some of the former students from the Boston college, just to find out something more about the place I’m heading to… And it looks like they’ve all loved it. It does make me curious… Really curious. Is it a better life I’m about to start? Or is my mind weird enough to spoil it all for me? Honestly,I don’t know. I’d have to wait and see. And hope for the best, too.
Claire de lune is the synonym for the world ‘calmness’ indeed.
Ana
I am so sorry, you have misunderstood me! I wasn’t saying at you are prejudice, you are awesome, I was saying that other people (*cough mother cough* *cough friends and family cough*) are.
Thanks so much for reading my blog! You are great!